Sampai bila. . ?

Ini apabila mata tak boleh tido dek kerana terlebih pengambilan caffeine pada hari ini. Jadi mari kita meluah perasaan. Hihihi. So topik harini? SAMPAI BILA. . .

Kenapa sampai bila? Yes, sbb aku selalu pikir tentang kehidupan aku sekarang. Dan sentiasa terpikir ttg hari kiamat & selalu takut bila tiba hari jumaat.

Sampai bila aku nak mcmni? Iman masih goyah. Sampai bila aku nak terus tidak menutup aurat dengan sempurna? Hmm. Sampai bila aku nak sentiasa melukakan hati faiz? Sampai bila aku nak terus jadi gemuk? Sampai bila aku nak makan gaji? Sampai bila aku malas nak ngaji quran? Sampai bila aku ni selalu nak berboros je?

Sampai bila ye aku nak terus dgn kehidupan yg mcmni? Leka dengan duniawi. Bila tersedar, aku rasa insaf & berubah. Tapi, sekejap. Sekejap okay! Lepastu buat balek. Terus leka, leka & leka :(

Hmm. Sebenarnya aku pon taktahu sampai bila. Please Ya Allah, tetapkan iman aku, istiqamahkan aku. Jadikan aku hambaMu yg taat, isteri yang solehah. Amin Ya Rabb. .

Haaa, mulalah nak nangesss niiiii. Haduiiii :'( Okok, gunite, as salam!

Life.

It is not that i didn't miss blogging. It's the matter of time. Seriously!

I know it’s wrong for me to do this to you, blog. 

You have been a loyal friend of mine, 

a friend with whom I will always feel comfortable.

I just have been very, very busy.

Busy living, busy growing, busy loving. Hiks.

My anniversary with hubs just passed.

Alhamdulillah, i am to this not-so-far relationship :')

But still with no kids around.

Been trying hard, work hard, doing the best, so let Allah do the rest.

I am living a good life now, syukur :)

Gtg, see yah!

On my current baby.

Alhamdulillah, been assigned to handle this project. Currently doing interior works for most of the boutiques, outlets & toilets for Pavilion KL.

I always wanted to be a QS with an Interior Design company. Now i have the opportunity & insyaAllah will deliver my very best.

Allah bless me. Amin.

Back on track, daa ;)

In the train!

Hello gemorning! I just can't believe that i am now blogging in the train while waiting to reach office! Hihihi. Best2 ;)

Okay train dah gerakkkkk, pening! Ttyl dolls.

Daa.

:'( :'( :'(

Khas buat Fazilah yang disayangi & akan dirindui selalu. . :')

Pertemuan Kita Di Suatu Hari
Menitiskan Ukhwah Yang Sejati
Bersyukurku Ke Hadrat Ilahi Di Atas Jalinan Yang Suci

Namun Kini Perpisahan Yang Terjadi
Dugaan Yang Menimpa Diri
Bersabarlah Di Atas Suratan
Ku Tetap Pergi Jua

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah Hamba Mu

Mencari Hidayah Daripada Mu
Dalam Mendidikkan Kesabaranku
Ya Allah Tabahkan Hati Hamba Mu
Di Atas Perpisahan Ini

"Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.
Pahit Manis Perjuangan Telah Kita Rasa Bersama. Semoga
Allah Meredhai Persahabatan Dan Perpisahan Ini. Teruskan
Perjuangan"

Kan Ku Utuskan Salam Ingatanku
Dalam Doa Kudusku Sepanjang Waktu
Ya Allah Bantulah HambaMu

Senyuman Yang Tersirat Di Bibirmu
Menjadi Ingatan Setiap Waktu
Tanda Kemesraan Bersimpul Padu
Kenangku Di Dalam Doamu

Semoga Tuhan Berkatimu...

(Nangis dalam kete otw balek rumah nti! :'( Tssskkkkk)

wordless.

It sucks when the only person who can make you feel better 

is also the reason why you always cry!

Thank you for hurting me last night.

When he gets a year older.

Currently at office. Doing few things. Handing over process i guess. I AGAIN shifting to a new working environment. AGAIN. An Interior Design company which i had dreamed since 3 years back. I got this opportunity, Syukur is the only word. Next Monday i am officially an ID cost consultant. Ewah! Hihi.

Last 9th Nov was hubs birthday. We were busy with works then. Luckily family celebrated him on behalf of me. (Untungnyaaaaa jadiii faiz, ramai yg sayang! Hahaha.)

Thanks to ALL! Love to the maxxxxx :')

To the man i married. .

People tell of how the early year of marriage is always the hardest. No one told me of how hard the year going into your marriage can be. The impatience, the frustrations, the misunderstandings and everything else. I know that we always have our silly fights over dumb things. But I am so thankful to Him for every single time he has spoken to me about our relationship :') :') :') :') 

Thank you for your quiet when I'm loud. Thank you for your rational thought when I'm being crazy. Thank you for choosing me every day, through the good and the bad. Thank you for being true to who you are. 

Please hold my hand and take this walk with me. Happy Birthday to the man i loved. May Allah bless you always. I love you more than i can ever explain.


Hugs & kisses,
Wifey.

Two days in a row faiz dapat surprise! Eleh, mengadaaaa lettew. . I ada few pictures lagiii nak share & a birthday video. Nti lah ea. Next entry, for sure! ;)

It's a quarter to 1am, i really need to get my sleeping beauty. Hihihi. See yah in the next entry. Stay tune. Gunite dolls, mmuaaaahhh!  

Finally, yeah!

Berabuknyaaaaa blog iiii! Hihihi.

Hai as-salam everybadeh ~ Lama gils x blogging *sobs* Since i shifted from Paragon to Raintree, takde lah internet connection kat rumah sbb relocation unifi really takes time! Then finally smlm baru unifi team dtg. Kejap je installation xsampai one hour pon, tapi i terpaksa menunggu almost 2 months. Duhh. All this while kesian sgt kat hubs sbb everytime nak submit kerja ke apa ke terpaksa ke cc. Spending 2-3 hours uploading & downloading. Alahai. . So, harini dah boleh senyum lebar, yay! ;))))))

                                     F I N A L L Y ! *Excuse semak tu kay, belum kemas lagi :D*

Alhamdulillah, faiz dah xpayah ke cc lagi. Hihihi. I rasa dia orang plg excited T_T Sampai smlm the whole day i teman kawan pegi shopping pon lgsg dia takde call. Mengadap kerja ke mengadap tenet??? Papetah, huh!

Oh yaa, yesterday i accompanied my friend shopping brg2 rumah kat IKEA. Nak deco rumah katanya. Kikiki. Best best! Makkkk sukaaaaa!! ;)))

So lps shopping tu kitorang pegi dinner dekat Big Brothers Restauran & Grill, The Strand, Kota Damansara. Masa tu lapaaaaaa masyaAllah!! Bila tgok menu tu jadik rambang mata, oh help!

Finally we took 2 main dishes & one 'not-so-side-dish'. Haha.

XL MEATBALL BOLOGNAISE FOR HER

(Spaghetti served with extra large meatballs,

 bolognaise sauce, shaved parmesan and parsley)

SEAFOOD AGLIO E'OLIO (Olive Oil Base) LINGUINE FOR ME  

(Linguine pasta saute together with mussels, prawn and squid)

CHAR-BROILED LAMB CHOP TOWER FOR US! LOL 

(Juice and tender New Zealand lamb chop with mix lettuce, honey mashed potatoes served with

 rosemary garlic brown sauce topped with a dash of herb crust)

Sedaps sedaps (let them speak for you! :p) Not bad, the price oso not bad. Cuma lamb tuuuu -not-so-tender lah. Haha. Somehow, it was still acceptable ;) 

Gtg, it's weekend! Have to cook for my loved one. Will be back, daaaaaa ~

Shifting.

Hola darlings!

Almost a week x updating anything here. Been so busy with business & shifting. Raya mood is still left behind. Baju raya faiz je dah beli before ramadhan that day. Sbb faiz lah paling susah nak dpt size baju melayu kalau beli last minute. He wears euro ppl size (katanya T_T) Bought one set of baju melayu for him with new sampin tenun. Alhamdulillah :) Cuma shirts, kemeja & pants je belum beli lagi. Mine? I still didn't buy any baju raya for me. Faiz dah berkali2 ajak keluar carik, tapi hmmm, nanti dulu lah. . I have lot of things to spend than buying new clothes for me :)

Last week been looking  a new place for us. This time i prefer not landed house at all! I always wanted a better place & a good security system. So headache but Alhamdulillah Allah make it easy for us. We finally found a Malay 'landlord', Encik Razak. Very kind, humble & easy to tolerate. His unit was superb! I really love the interior, the upgraded floor parquet, the kitchen cabinet, the rooms, the 'sexy' toilet, the balcony, the lightings. I love everything about the house! Having a peaceful surrounding & breathtaking view. Allah! :') Please, please be nice to us dear house. .

I fall in love with the house at the first sight, so hubs straight away put some deposits to the owner. Syukur, we already hve a new place to stay after coming back from raya. So, few days left before we going back, i still busy with shifting. Tomorrow, 3 indons maid will come over to help me out. Doing packing & cleaning. So that i can slowly moving out my things to our new place before raya. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah :')

Btw, sorry for not sharing any pics of our new place as you know i don't have any device for taking picture. All had been taken :'( InsyaAllah ada rezeki, later. . :)

I gtg, have to fetch nina from her school. Will be back!

Pic taken from Google.



Please be good to us. Please :')

Hugs & kisses,

mrsfaiz

Not-a-productive-day.

As salam to all :) How you guys doing? Goodddddd? (Gaya fify kat keek ;p)

Yesterday was so hectic & exhausted day. Balek2 meniaga bazaar ramadhan, solat & terus tido dgn apron2. Hihi. Faiz kejut ajak pegi minum2 & supper pon xsedar, sayang nak bukak mata! End up uptown pon i xpegi niaga. Haih, ruginyaaa. Layan penat punya pasal.

Then pukul 12lbh faiz kejut lg skali, ada visitiors katanya. Abg ezani & friend drop by nak tanya kaba & nak ucap takziah psl incident hrtu. Tapi tetap, i xbangun2! MasyaAllah. 'Sorry ye abg. Mie mmg penattttt sgt2' :(

Pukul5am, lagi skali faiz kejut ajak sahur. Haaaaaa, boleh pulak i bangun! Makan punya pasal T_T So turun sahur dgn faiz. After jemaah Subuh, sambung tido balek. Teruknya rasa. X produktif lgsg ramadhan semalam. Total tido = 13 hours! Crazeeeee. Sepatutnya buat ibadat. Rasa sedih & rugi.

So, harini bgun nak buat housekeeping memandangkan ptg ni xmeniaga bazaar (closed every Mon & Sat). Rumah dah x gaya rumah. Bilik i yg dikembur 'setan' hrtu pon masih belum bkemas (xde masa). Hopefully harini sempat nak buat semuanya before malam nak pergi niaga di uptown ;) Go go go!

Dah lama x catch up dgn kawan2 since incident haritu. Ramai yg msg kat fon, kat fb, blog, etc. . Tapi belum bkesempatan nak reply & takde mood lg. Sorry guys. InsyaAllah hrni kalau ada masa :)

Gtg, washing machine insyaAllah 3 trips harini T_T Wish me luck! Daa. .

Semangat.

Harini hari pertama i kembali semula ke dapur setelah 3 hari xberniaga atas dugaan yg menimpa family i hrtu. Seawal 5pagi dah start aktiviti. Pegi sahur kat luar dgn faiz & terus pegi pasar nak cari barang2 basah. Alhamdulillah i rasa semangat sikit hrni, excited nak ke bazaar & uptown. Rasa rindu, wuwuwuwu ;)))

Bermulalah balek rutin harian spjg bulan Ramadan ni :) Seolah-olah ada satu semangat yg luar biasa hrni. Syukur :') 

Sbnrnya ada something yg i tgh pk skrg ni since dah rasa xsecure dgn rumah yg i duduk skrg. .:( Yeah, moving. Lagiii??? Penatnyerrr, serius! :( Tapi faiz kata dia sanggup & rela dr sedihh tgok i susah nak tido mlmmlm. Hmm. Sorry sayang. . :'(

Semoga Allah permudah apa sahaja urusan i dgn faiz. Amin Ya Rabb. .

Tragic.

As salam & salam Ramadhan to all bloggers & readers.

Dah bersarang blog without any updates for almost one and half year. Been busy with lot of things. So now decided nak blog balek mcm dulu2, insyaAllah. I still love writing for sure! :)

For the past a year, let gone by gone. Kita start cerita baru pulak frm now on okay? Hihi. Serius rindu bila belek2 previous entries. Most of them were my love story dgn faiz! Auwww :')

Why suddenly i decided to blog again? Sometimes i rasa blogging is the best way for me to express my feeling in a good or bad way. Fb kurang sesuai, sbb terlalu public! Lagipon xblh nak tulis pjg2 giniiii, xkuasa nak baca kalau org post pjg2. Kan kan? ;D

Pagi ni mncurah-curah idea nak menulis. Lepas sahur, teman faiz bborak, solat & belek2 blog yg dah bsarang ni. I am on unpaid leave during this Ramadhan month. So boleh lah fokus pd ibadat & berniaga, insyaAllah :)

I feel so disturbed this few days, something bad was happening & it's hard for me to move on. Phobics and taken my vigor away :'( Allahurabbi. . Thank u to faiz, family & friends who deign to push my spiritual back to normal. It's not easy, but i promise i'll try my very best :'(

Dah 3 hari xpergi niaga, bazaar & uptown. I masih mencari kekuatan. Hopefully harini dah kuat sikit & malam ni boleh kembali ke rutin harian. 

Masa kejadian, i tgh baring on my super comfy satee dpn tv while mama tgh facebooking kat sofa, just infront of me. Gate rumah terbuka luas sbb papa baru balek & dia akan keluar balek after taking a nap. So, i pon xkunci lah gate porch tu. Even grill rumah pon biar terbuka luas, sbb i masak utk bazaar kat luar rumah (faiz dah siap pasangkan canopy & canvas). Selalunya xpernah dibiarkan gate & grill tu terbuka mcmtu, tapi tataulah kenapa haritu. .  Hmm. . It's a very big mistakes i did! :'(

Tbe2 i nmpak satu kereta wira brown berhenti depan rumah, (mama pon nmpk) Then mama kata ' Mie ada orang India tu kat luar rumah'. Normally org berhenti depan rumah sbb nak tgok rumah sebelah yg masih available for sale/rent. . Tbe2 dr dalam i nmpk sorang india ni berlari masuk ikut sliding tepi, (dalam hati i mmg dah agak dia nak merompak sbb dia berlari laju frm depan). . Then dia masuk rumah bdiri tgh2 rumah and suruh i dgn mama 'DIAM, AKU NAK BARANG & DUIT'. Suddenly masuk lagi 2org india dari pintu depan dgn parang! Allahurabbi.

I dgn mama hnya diam. I nmpk muka mama ketakutan, so i cuba pretend i okay sb xnak bg mama cuak sgt. The burglars pon start geledah rumah i, suruh cabut brg kemas, amik ipad i, lappy mama, watches, fons, jewels yg ada atas meja semua disapu bersih! Handbag mama pon! 

I cuba nak bdiri sbb nak bertenang, tapi the burglars letak parang kat leher i sb ingat i nak lari :'( Then mama merayu, 'Jangan apa2kan anak saya & keluarga saya. Kalau awak nak amik barang, amiklah, tapi jgn buat apa2 pd kami'. :'( :'( :'( Masa tu pukul 1 tghari. Papa & faiz ada kat atas, tgh tido. So dia tolak i dgn mama naik atas & tnya ada siapa dalam bilik.

Naik atas, dia geledah bilik papa tido & masterbedroom. . At first papa xsedar, bila papa tsedar sbb bunyi bising, dia acah nak hayun parang kat leher papa. Dia amik semua wallet, fons, briefcase, makeup bag mama & etc. Then dia masuk bilik faiz tido, geledah all over the place! Tapi alhamdulillah, dia xperasan handbag i atas sofa & wallet faiz atas dressing table. Tapi dia amik dslr camera. Allah! :'( Dia keluar balek & cuba nak cabut faiz pnya pc, tapi dsebabkan wayar yg  bserabut, dia xjadi :'( :'( Syukur sgt sbb itulah sumber pendapatan utama keluarga i :'(

Then dia masuk dlm bilik nina, amik PS2 nina :'( Dia kurung kami dalam bilik. Lbh kurang 15mins mcmtu, dgr bunyi kereta yg dah beredar. I cuba gagahkan diri, berlari turun bawah & panggil neighbours mtk tlg call polis. Hanya Allah sahaja yg tahu perasaan i masa tuh :'( 

Polis dtg, amik report, cap jari & now masih melakukan siasatan. YaAllah, i never tot it could happen to any of us! :'( Until now, i masih rasa fobia & everytime nak tido, susah nak lelap. Faiz yg kena pujuk & i keep on crying, crying, crying sampai ttido, up to now :'( It's hard!

Thank u so much to those who came, bukak puasa with us. For the prayer, calm us, texts, and call selalu just nak bagi semangat & to ease us forgetting the tragic incident. InsyaAllah, we will be fine. InsyaAllah :')

I yakin Allah menguji keimanan para hambaNya dgn melihat setinggi mana kesabaran mereka ketika ditimpa musibah. Mungkin Allah ingin membersihkan sumber2 rezeki keluarga i. Mungkin ada sumber yg syubhah atau tidak halal. Berprasangka baik dgn Allah. Kami redha. Semoga ada hikmah atas apa yg berlaku, insyaAllah :')

Untuk renungan bersama :

Manusia yang diberikan ujian oleh Allah swt bolehlah diketegorikan kepada empat golongan sepertimana yang telah dijelaskan oleh Syeikh Muhammad bin Salih al-Uthaimin rhm.

Golongan Pertama:
Mereka yang tidak mempu menerima ujian. Golongan ini merupakan golongan yang terlalu nipis sifat kesabaran di dalam jiwa mereka. Maka mereka akan membenci setiap ketentuan dan ujian yang mereka hadapi. Kebencian ini akan lahir daripada hati mereka dengan menolak qada’ dan qadar yang telah Allah tetapkan dalam hidup mereka.

Hati kecil mereka akan berkata, “kenapakah kejamnya Tuhan kepada diriku?” Malah tindakan benci ini akan lahir dengan kata-kata kesat terhadap ketentuan Allah swt ke atas diri mereka. Kemungkinan juga sifat benci ini akan hadir dalam bentuk tindakan dengan mencederakan anggota tubuh badan malah mungkin menyebabkan seseorang itu membunuh diri. Inilah golongan yang terlampau lemah jiwa dan iman mereka ketika ditimpa sesuatu ujian.

Golongan Kedua:
Mereka yang sabar dengan ketentuan Allah swt. Golongan ini akan sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah swt. Segala ujian sama ada dalam bentuk kesakitan mahupun kesedihan itu akan ditempuhnya dengan tabah dan dia yakin segala itu ada hikmah dan kebaikan untuk diri dan kehidupannya di muka bumi Allah swt. Ketikamana ditimpa ujian maka dia akan meletakkan tangannya di atas dada lalu berkata“Hasbiyallahu wa ni’mal wakil” iaitu cukuplah Allah itu bagiku dan dialah sebaik-baik pengatur urusan.

Golongan Ketiga:
Mereka yang redha dengan setiap ujian. Ketikamana seseorang itu dipukul gelora dalam kehidupannya dia akan menerima ketentuan tersebut dengan rasa redha. Baginya setiap ketentuan Allah swt itu adalah baik baginya. Inilah ciri-ciri mereka yang tinggi keimanan ketikamana ditimpa musibah dalam kehidupan. Malah Nabi saw mengkategorikan mereka ini sebagai golongan yang luar biasa.

Sabda Nabi saw: “Amat luar biasa urusan kehidupan seseorang mukmin itu. Segala perkara yang ditempuhi dianggap segalanya baik baginya. Perkara ini tidak akan dirasai melainkan oleh seseorang yang beriman. Apabila dia diberikan kesenangan maka dia akan bersyukur kerana dia yakin perkara tersebut adalah baik baginya. Malah apabila dia ditimpa musibah maka dia akan bersabar kerana perkara itu juga adalah baik baginya”. (Hadith riwayat Imam Muslim).

Inilah contoh sifat redha yang perlu adalah dalam jiwa kita ketika menerima ujian daripada Allah swt.

Golongan Keempat:
Mereka yang bersyukur di atas ujian yang diberikan oleh Allah swt. Inilah sifat paling mulia pada seseorang hamba ketikamana menerima ujian dan dugaan kehidupan daripadaNya. Ketika mana dia telah bersabar dan redha, lantas akan hadir suatu rasa yang cukup indah iaitu bersyukur di atas ujian-ujian tersebut. Kerana apa dia perlu bersyukur? Kerana dengan ujian kesakitan dan kesedihan itulah yang menyebabkan dia lebih kuat iman dan terasa lebih hampir kepada Allah swt. Segala kesakitan zahir dan batin itu seakan hilang bila rasa cinta kepada Allah swt dan syukur kepadaNya itu hadir di dalam jiwanya.

Inilah sunnah Nabi saw ketika menerima ujian yang ditempuhinya. Baginda saw akan bersyukur lantas mengucapkan : “Segala pujian bagi Allah swt di atas setiap keadaan”.(Diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Majah dan dinilai sahih oleh al-Albaniy).

Wallahualam.

Keep on going,

Dhiya.

#lovequote

anyone can make you happy

by doing something special

but only someone special

can make you happy

without doing anything

#lovequote

langkawi II.

Ohmaiiii, sorry lambat giler nak update blog since balek frm Langkawi haritu! Sbb seriusly ai busy dgn main claim & subconts claim yg nak kena prepare. *sobs* Btw, the 'anniversary' trip was super ohsemmmm! first time ai pegi Langkawi and ai mmg jatuh cinta dgn dia! rasa xmau balek. the ppl there very polite and soft spoken! Ai xmnikmati keindahan alam sgt sbb i sebok nak shopping! so for the first time pegi nih mmg i xpegi lah segala dayang bunting suma tuh. second trip (coming! :p) baru nak explore & treasure benda2 tuh suma ;) insyaAllah.

4hari kat sana mmg ai masuk suma kedai kat Langkawi tuh! (tapi ai rasa ada yg i missed out kot) i did some survey of every items at the first two days. survey on the comparison of Correlle dinnerware , chocolates, tefal set, etc. kat kedai ni brape, kedai tu brape. hikhik (yah, calculative but not with ppl for sure!) mestilah, barulah worth buying kan. lagipon 4hari kot kat sana, i got plenty of time since ai xpegi tempat2 (stated kat atas :p) dah penat gell kehulu kehilir, tumit saket, badan saket, so kitorang pegilah foot reflexology yg superb gilaa! mmg puas hati bayar mahal2, sgt worth! release gilaaa lepastuh, semakin semangat nak shopping! hiks ;)

So, on the third day baru lah start shopping :D beli souveniers for family & friends. faiz dah mbebel ckp penat lah itulah, well knowing men's attitude kan -_- tapi, ada ai kesah? :p lepas dah penat2 jalan suma, pegi lepak makan laksa penang kow punya kat tepi pantai. so relaxing! The last night kat sana, mmg macam sedih sbb nak balek dah kan the next morning :( so, mood dah laen mcm sket. . tapi still okay lah sbb malam tu nak celebrate our first anniversary, taley lah muram2 :') mmg awesome sgt bila dapat jalan tapi pantai sama2, makan2, gurau2, hingga masing2 lupa workload kat kl! hahaha. balek bilik lepastu senyum lebar masing2, teringat moment2 masa nak dijabkabulkan tahun lepas. oloh, rindu nya! :')

So, tibalah hari terakhir kat sana. sempat lagi pegi idaman suri, shopping terakhir! haha. lepastu balek bilik semula & packing2 luggage in tidy. so that senang nak hangkut kat airport & boleh minimize luggage weight yg nak check-in nti. haih, rupa2nya mmg kitorang punya luggage exceed 40kilos! which is 70kilos! demmmm :( so, sepatutnya kena extra charge rm30/kilo. so imagine lah kan, extra luggage kitorang 30kilos = rm900! fuhhh, mmg terduduklah ada 'mamat' tu kan :p naseb baek ada auntie nih gn brader nih baek hati nak bagi tumpang luggage dorang since dorang tade check-in luggage. alhamdulillah hoi!! ;) terus senyum balek 'mamat' tuh :D hiks.

Baleklah kami dengan senang hati ke kl balek haritu. lege siotttt ;) what can i say, i love langkawi. serius rasa nak pergi lagi bila ada kelapangan. dah mula rasa rindu kat langkawi masa mula2 sampai kl :( nak pergi lagi nak pergi lagi!

So, enjoylah pic2 kami yg xseberapa kat bawah neh okayyyyy :DD

-THE END :D-

langkawi.

Currently at Langkawi with darla, counting our Anniversary!

Wait for my next entry hokayyyy :D

Mwahx.

let's holidayyyyy.

Hoyeah. Alhamdulillah mood semakin baik :') Kerja pon rasa best & masalah emosi semakin berkurang. Aku berterima kasih padaNya kerana aku yakin Dia Maha Mendengar :') Syukur. *sobsob*

So, esok aku nak pegi Langkawi dgn Faiz! 4hari, 3malam kat sana. Yeayyyyyyy. Sumpah xsabar. Macam2 ada dalam list aku neh. Hakhak. (Sabar ye cik dapur, saya akan penuhkan awak dengan barang2 yg best2! Suka x suka x? :p)

Aku nak carik dinnerware set yg cute2 & rare (woarghhhh), dishes set, kuali kuala belanga :p, steamer, perfumes, coklat coklit, eh macam2 lah lagiiiiiii! tapi bergantung kepada budget lerrrr! hakhak. Xsabarrrrrr!!!! :D

Semalam aku dah buat laundry, dah siap jemur suma. So, balek kerja malam nih boleh lah start packing :) Nak kena pack betul2 sbb aku amek 60kg luggage (2 person). Kena squeeze betul2. Haih. Mama awal2 lagi dah demand mintak Correlle lah bagai. Amboi! :p Bestnyaaaaa!!!! Flight esok pukul 1050am. Naek firefly kat Skypark, Subang Airport.

Serius aku excited sgt nak pegi hols, sbb aku rasa hectic life aku dengan faiz skrg nih buat kitorang jadik emo, jadik stress, pressure, nak bertekak je memanjang. Faiz pulak asek busy kejar dateline, kadang2 smpai 2mlm xtido :( Sedih! *sobsob* So, bila pegi hols, away from KL, atleast boleh spend quality moment dgn faiz :') Hikhik. Semoga Allah sentiasa memelihara kami & permudahkan segala urusan kami, Amin :)

Sebenarnya aku teringat kat someone. Dia ada kirim barang from langkawi kat aku, tapi xsempat nak borak pjg psl ni, relationship kami diuji )': Aku menyimpan seribu perasaan, nak call, nak msg, tapi biarlah dulu. Aku pon tatau kenapa dgn aku kali ni. Hanya Allah yang lebih mengetahui )': Apa-apapun, aku sentiasa berdoa yang baik2 untuk kite. Semoga Allah membuka hati dan melembutkan hati kite, insyaAllah :')

Oklah, kena sambung buat kerja. Esok dah start cuti sampai 6hb. Yeaaaaayyyy! See you in the next entry hokay :D Daa.

kerana kau FB!

haah aku deactivate FB sbb aku rasa FB macam sial!

kerana FB bergaduh sana sini.

kerana FB silaturrahim yg lama terjalin berkecai.

kerana FB aku hilang orang yg aku sayang.

kerana FB fitnah berleluasa.

kerana FB, semua kerana FB.

memang FB sial.

phuiiii!

love letter.

To,
The man,
I married.

I met you. I liked you. You seemed like the person who would love me, take care of me and never bear the sight of tears in my eyes. Besides being broad minded, you were fun loving, and I was sure that your good sense of humour would never let the smile on my face fade away.

Darling,
It is very difficult to discuss something with someone who does not look at you when you are talking and who obviously shows no interest in having a conversation. And this is what I sensed last night, I don’t think that I put you off, I just think that you don’t want to listen what I have to say.It is difficult enough for me to express it and you do not make it easy either. So if I put it down in paper, I will say it in one go, and you can read it whenever you have the time.I just want to be open and talk frankly and have to be able to express what I need/want/think/feel, and if I can not do it with you, with whom I am expected to do it? This is what I always wanted for us. And this is also what it is missing in our relationship at the moment.So the conversation that it was not possible to have with you face to face, goes on paper.

Darling,
If I am not the person, the woman you’ve expected me to be, if I am not good enough for you, then I am sorry if I’ve disappointed you. I feel miserable, I am very upset and now I can not deal with so much pain. I really need you all the time. As a wife it was my responsibility to be with you at every step of life and to understand your situations. No matter what the others were saying but I should support you without any question but instead of doing so I questioned you about your every action and I did not believe you. Sweetheart I know that I hurt you like anything but believe me it was not me but it was my insecurity who forcefully driven me to this situation. Although sorry is just a word but today it is the entire expression of my feelings )':

Darling,
I was too afraid to tell you in person. And hence I am apologising to you in this way. I hope that you will forgive me. There have been moments prior to this when I have been furious with you for many mistakes which many a times were not even your fault. Today, I understand and I apologise for all those times )': If you read this darling, I am waiting for you to come and cuddle me with your warm love because then only I will be sure that my sorry is accepted by you )':


I love you )':



Sincerely,
Your tear.

clinique vs klinik.

Semalam aku kuar dating dgn faiz. Best! ;) Nak pergi buat facial, tapi fully booked. So aku pergi repair jam faiz kat Pertama then aku melangok dalam Sogo. Hikhik. Xramai orang lgsg and aku rasa surprised gila! Aku mmg plan nak kuar smlm, carik baju sbb dah lama xbeli baju baru. (well, sape yg ada fb aku mesti tau kenapa aku dah lama xshopping baju & suar kan kan? jengjeng :p)

Oh, suma brand pon sale kauuu! Macam biasa lah, Sogo kan hari2 sale :p Aku beli jeans satu, cardigan, shirts & few blouses. Satisfied gila! ;) Faiz pulak beli shirts je sbb dye dah berlambak kemeja & ada yg xpkai pon lagi. Haih.

(Eleh, rasa hensem lettewww :p)

Taraa~~~~ Faiz offer nak belanja skin product sbb dye rasa muka aku mcm dah teruk sket since aku kerja kat site & mmg dah lama xpkai product apa2 (malas) & dah lama jugak xpergi buat facial. Mula2 aku mcm tanak, membazirlah katanya, konon malu2 kucing, haktuihh. Last2 pergi Clinique booth :p Consultant dye best & friendly sgt! Dye examine skin aku & suggest aku pkai few products lah yg suit skin aku. So, dye pick few bottles & total up = RM568.00 ohemjayyyyy! aku nmpak faiz telan air liuqqqqq :p :p :p hahahahahahahaha! (hamek kauuu!) Luckily, ada one product tu yg aku cut down sbb aku rasa kurang necessary kot. So, dapatlah murah sket. Hoyeahhh.

(Tekunnyerrrr akuuu. Poyo lettewww :p)

(Muka orang kena 'pow' Kesianyerrrr. Ololololo :p)

Yeaaayyyyyy! Thank you sayang! :*

*aku mmg mengesyorkan produk ni kepada wanita2 yg bermasalah kulit muka. serius produk nih best & insyaAllah berkesan. it's proven! baca kat internet hokayyy kalau nak tahu ;) aku suka sbb xde chemical! so natural :) pegi lah ke booth2 Clinique yg bdekatan utk mendapatkan khidmat nasihat :) eceh, promote siot! :p*

otak bersawang.

haih, bersawang dah blog aku. hikhik. seriusly aku mmg tade masa nak update apa2 :( aku busy dengan final exam, busy prepare claim utk klien, busy dgn macam2! hmm. alhamdulillah aku dah menyambut kelahiran ke 24tahun (teeettttt :D) pd 15hb haritu. aku hampir terlupa harijadi aku sbb sebok sgt prepare nak exam! dah semakin meningkat dewasa, semoga aku juga semakin matang dalam berfikir, mbuat keputusan dan semuanya! :')

rumahtangga macam biasa, alhamudilillah. . rutin harian juga mcm biasa. . pergi kerja, balek kerja. . cuma banyak yang perlu aku belajar lepasni sbb aku dah buat keputusan untuk resign atas beberapa faktor kukuh! aku rasa ini yg terbaik buat aku dan faiz :) semoga pengalaman bekerja dgn TRC dapat menjadi bekalan buat aku bila berada di company yg lain. .

for the time being, aku xbercadang utk bekerja di mana2. sbb faiz suruh duduk rumah dulu 2, 3 bulan. . menjalani rutin harian seorang surirumah! juga nak settlekan bberapa perkara. . semoga Allah sentiasa mempermudah urusan aku dan faiz, insyaAllah :)

oh, btw aku baru check result exam tadi. sedikit kecewa kerana xcapai dekan yg aku impikan. tapi aku masih bersyukur :') terima kasih xterhingga pada semua yg sentiasa mberi sokongan, terutama pada faiz yg xpernah jemu mendorong aku yg pemalas nih :p pada kaksu (classmate) yg sentiasa bagi aku info2 penting. hikhik :D love youuu!

kurang dari bberapa hari lg aku akan pegi bcuti dgn faiz. aku mmg mnunggu saat2 itu sbb aku dah lama xde quality moment dgn faiz )': dan sejujurnya aku tgh stress skrg dgn bberapa masalah yg mndatang. tapi aku percaya dgn aturan Allah, aku percaya dengan dugaan Allah kali ni walau hakikat sebenarnya aku sedih & terpaksa pasrah )':

semoga aku dan faiz sentiasa tabah. doakan kami ya :')