baru lepas gayut tepon gn mama. sejam bcakap tepon, panas telinga woi! hee. rasa lege sket sbb dah luahkan apa terbuku kat hati. satu ayat mama yg sgt menyentuh jiwa. .

"mie, diam bukan bererti kite kalah sayang. . sabar lah. ."

aku xmampu nak kata apa2. hanya mampu berdoa semoga segala kekusutan ini akan berakhir.

amin.

kembar siam.

haritu pegi jalanjalan kat shopping mall dgn encek suami. well, pegang2 tangan masa jalan itu perkara wajib lah. (laki aku memang romantik hoiiii :p kau takyah nak jeles2.) hahahaha! gelak2 and gurau2, maen tolak2 and ngejek2, macam2 ada. xsangka pulak ada untie neh tgah tgok gelagat kitorang. i xperasan lgsg kot. then i masuklah satu kedai nih usha kasut2. comel kot pump shoes dye! -_- tapi malas nak spend sbb dah blambak pump shoes & ada few yg xpkai pon lagi. huh.

tbe2 auntie tadi tegur i. .

auntie : hello my dear.

ai : hye auntie (i senyum muka gediklah. macam biasa :p)

auntie : you look familiar. but i'm not sure if we have meet before?

ai : maigad, serious i cannot remember anything. huu. sorry auntie :(

auntie : nvmd dear. i just wanna ask you. is that your brother? (jari tunding kat suami i) who is the elder or you are the younger?

ai : (gulp! i tatau nak cakap apa. blurrr pon ada jugak!)

auntie : you both are closed! so sweet dear. .

ai : (mak aihhh!! org tua neh ingat i gn encik suami adek beradek kot!!!)

ai : oh auntie, he is my husband not my brother ;) i think you misunderstands ady. hehe.

auntie : (muka dye mmh guilty gilaaaa woi! hahahahahaha!) woah, i tot you both are sibling because your both face look alike!! i swear! i'm so sorry dear!

ai : nvmd auntie. yeah, there were few ppl telling me the same thing before. hehe.

auntie : they are right! (sambil senyum tawar kat aku. mbbe nak cover malu kot? :p) btw, nice to meet you dear. .

ai : hee. nice to meet you auntie :)

end of the conversation :D gelak2 lah i gn encek suami. best pulak rasa! :p tapi ye ke muka kitorang sama? macam x lah, sbb ofkos i lagi cute dari encek suami, even i tade dimple pon :p hahahaha! (annoying? like i'm care? :D)

haaaaa! sama x? sama x? ;)

blank.

The words really hurt me. Swear! So despicable.
Thank you so much. I'll keep it to myself.
I believe that Allah knows everything.
He planned something good for us.
He tests us often to grant something precious and meaningful.
I will wait for the moment.
I promise when the time come,
i just want to smile at you without saying anything.
This is not a revenge, but kind of sad feeling
that left unsaid. . .

tq.

We're not perfect, we're far from ideal and we're not always going to get it right. But we do learn from our mistakes and we find new ways to make each other smile. He's my best friend. He's the person I want to talk to when things go wrong. He's the one I want to talk to when things go right.

He's the one I want to talk to no matter what. There is no way to say thank you enough for that so this Thanksgiving, I am very grateful and thankful for my husband. I love you sayang. I meant it :')

everything is for a reason.

Hello darla :)

I really wanna share something with you after i read this post in one of my fav bloggers. Recently i was dealing with my friend's break up, having problems with boyfie and a lot more.

I know this is completely out of the blue, but I feel the need to let it out anyways. This entry goes out to all the ladies who have ever been heart-broken by a guy or currently dealing with a harsh break-up. I've gone through it before when I was in my first relationship so I think it's something that a lot of people can relate to. It's not easy going through a break up. It hurts I'm not gonna lie. But guess what? Everything happens for a reason. And usually it happens for the best. As some people might put it, 'After a hurricane comes a rainbow'. And thats exactly what happened to me:) Allah always knows what is best for us. I found someone who I can truly call my soulmate and that I believe has made me a better person. At one point in my life, I realized what an idiot I was thinking that I'll never find the 'right guy' again when I was with the wrong guy to begin with! So mark my words ladies, one day you will come to your senses and actually be thankful to the guy who broke your heart! Because if it wasn't for him, you would have never met 'THE ONE'!

So if he/she dumps you saying 'let's just be friends' or 'i'm not ready for a commitment yet', don't go crying your eyeballs out thinking that it's the end of the world or questioning was it something you did wrong and start blaming yourself or all that nonsense. There are tons of guys out there that might just be THE ONE for you! Trust me. Regardless of whatever reason that person left you, in the end it's actually his/her loss, not yours. Break-ups are supposed to make you more mature. Not the other way around. If there's one(or more) things I've learned from my own past experience is :

1. Don't get involved in a relationship when you're in school(especially during important years like SPM year!) because puppy love never lasts(well some do, but very unlikely).

2. Don't get into a relationship that your family(your mom especially!) does not approve of.

3. Don't be in a relationship where you don't feel the freedom to be yourself, ie. making ugly faces or being silly around him.
and most importantly,

4. Love Allah, your family, and yourself first before anything else.

Interesting isn't it? Cherish! :)

stuck.

I am busy doing nothing. Lotsa things but lack of time. Feels like 'bang'ing my head to wall. Gggrrr! Heh. Btw, I love being myself now even i get stuck in so many things. Quarelling with friends, bullshitting ppls around and whatsoever. Hahahaha! :D

Truth be told, I'm exhausted and I have a million things on my mind. Duhh, i really want something perfect with no efford. Can i? Ngaaa :D I wanna go for holiday with darla, i wanna have good&quality sleep, i wanna shopping as i am sooooo in love with fashion, i wanna eat something delicious that i have never try, in facts, i wanna have everything good in life as i have an awesome husband ;) haha!

That's all, thank you :p

. . . .

dot again.

dear heart. .

please get well soon.

please.

weekend.

i just had nothing on my Sunday. i don't go anywhere. i woke up for Subuh prayer 'berjemaah' and then continued sleeping. hehe. . after i woke up again, my stomach started to sing 'hungry' song. duhh. faiz then told me that he was hungry too. haha! (bila je you xlapar sayang :p)

i was planning to cook 'mihun goreng tomyam' for breakfast, but then it was already eleven, so i tot it would be better if i straight away cooked for lunch. sayang rushed to market to buy few ingredients to cook. he came back in 20 minutes later and i started to prepare everything in less than an hour ;) wow! hebat kan i? :p

after having lunch together, i just stay tune on watching movies while sayang got back to his tonne works. i did some bedsheets and comforters laundry today. i had no feeling of going out today :/ i got tired a lot easily nowadays but i don't know why :(

haf to stop writing btw, sayang called for Asar prayer. see you in the next entry yaw!




love,
weekend housewife.

yeah.

gambar hiasan semata mata.

admitted.

papa was admitted at 'Kuantan Specialist Hospital' yesterday for suspected Influenza A (H1N1), also known as swine flu. i was so shocked when received mama's phone call telling me about that. so much question was crossing my mind yesterday. pheww~ alhamdulillah after i was back from work, i called papa and he said that he was fine. he just needed some rest and waiting for doctor's fully check-up today :) he told me and faiz not to rush back since he was slowly recovered. syukur!

oh ya! mama did mms me papa's picture and i was like crying! )': get well soon papa. we pray for you. . love you, swear! :')

Dear doctor and nurses,

Please be good to papa. Give him your best hospitality.

Treat him well okay :)

Please please please.

Thank you so much.

dot.

exhausted.

enough said.

good night.

Why Women Cry.

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"

"Because I need to" she said.

"I don't understand," he said.

His mother just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," his dad answered carelessly.

The little boy, still wondering why women cry, finally asked the old wise shaikh (scholar). "He surely knows the answer", he thought.

"Ya Shaikh! Why do women cry so easily?"

The Shaikh answered:

"When Allah made the woman she had to be special. He made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

He gave an inner strength to endure both childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

He gave her a toughness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

He gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child hurts her badly.

He gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. He gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And lastly, He gave her a tear. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it. She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers.

You see my son, the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the beauty of her face, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

dating.

i had to actually post this entry last night, but since i felt sad and shocked about my friend's broken marriage, i slept early.

yesterday was a day out with husband. it was one of those lovely and perfect days. since he was busy with his new carrier , i felt a bit left out. but i did understand and always trying to be in his shoes. . btw sayang, thank you for being honest, reliable and patient :')

yeay pegi jalanjalan!!!

we had our early dinner at medan tuanku. (best 'sup campur' ever in kl!)

'kuey teow sup & mihun sup' sedap woooo!!!!

apa you ushaaaa tuh sayang?! i ada depan you kot niiii. gggrrr :D

khusyuk!

tapi pantang bila suruh senyumm :D

that was few pictures taken while we were at kedai makan. after that we made a move to lowyat. yeah, looking for my pink bb casing. gawd, why you are soooooo hard to find?! i found some pink casing but not dark pink that i wanted :(



sayang : i rasa xde lah sayang casing pink yg macam you nak tuh. .

me : abes yuna tuh :(

sayang : dye beli kat london lah i rasa

me : hmm.

sayang : okay, jom pegi london carik casing macam yuna tuh. nak?

me : -_- whatever sayang.



hahahahahaha! that was the real conversation okayh! finally i bought one casing but i am not so into it :( sayang did promised to find me the same casing like yuna wore to her bb's. yeay!

My banker! :p

heh. after that we were jalanjalan in the lowyat. surveying sayang's iphone4 and ipad. (fine, lowyat punya xmau, nak beli kat machine store! duhh.)

we made a move to tesco then. i wanted some juice and yogurt.

being crazy yaw ;) haha.

Dear darling,

Thank you for making me proud to be your wife, and for being my best friend. Thank you for making me feel beautiful in every way ;) Thank you for being so sweet. Thank you for being my super hero. Thank you for being you, sayang. Love you.

Love always.

pity, sad. .

i was crying in the car this evening while talking to my friend of mind. thought of missing her and husband gave her a call, asking why so 'sombong'. she did told husband she was facing difficulties in her life. then husband passed the phone to me. i was talking to her, asking her lot of things since i didn't met her ages! well, knowing her attitude, so happy-go-lucky woman, so i was expecting that she would happily talking to me on the phone. but i was wrong when she started to-shed-tear. maigad! what happen to you darling???! she was like. . "misya, i am getting divorce. ." ya Allah! lot of things were swimming in my head! i even can say nothing!!!!!! )': i inhaled and started to advice her few things about failure marriage. i can't stop crying but i slowly tried persuading her that everythings happen for a reason. . after few minutes, i hang up the phone. promised to call her back later. . )':

hopefully Allah is always with her, helping her to get through her new life. she also has to make to make sure that she has taken the time to be well prepared before she start down the road to divorce. good luck in life, friend. May Allah bless you. Amin )':

eisya baby.

The picture tells everything.

We miss you baby.

artist.

Hehe. I found this 'dusty' pictures in husband's PC. (aku godak2 tgok artworks dye then ternampak gambar2 neh :D) wow! dulu husband aku neh artist wooo! maen gitar, bass sume ;) he even has his own band! search lah kat internet, MADDAME. phewwwiiitttt! glamourrrrr :p *mati aku kalau dye baca post neh! sure dye gelak sbb nak marah xboleh ;p*

Cool kan? Hahahahahaha! Jap jap, ada lagi satuuuuu :p

Ini super duper cool okeh!! I like :D



"Hebatlah you sayang! Music Artist yet Art Artist. Meow! :p"

whateva.

i woke up bit early today. did some laundry yaw. but husband still sleeping. i know he was so exhausted. he claimed that he had not enough rest. "i penatlah be. . saket2 badan. weekend ni i nak tido puas2, qada tido mggu ni. ." kesian sayang i kan? :(

i punched my office tag at 9.01 a.m (okaylah tu hoi! smlm ngn smlm pkul 10.40 a.m. gila kan? :D hahaha!) oh ya, let me tell you an incident that was happened to me last 2 weeks :p


location : TRC lift from ground level to level 4.

suddenly, "tinggggg" the lift stopped at level 3, OMG! bos cynically smiling at me! (dalam hati, "whateverrrrr")


bos : hye misya.

me : hye bos! (muka cool)

bos : sooo early today? (macam %^$&*&! hahahaha!)

me : hehe. (senyum sengih, buat2 belek diary :p)

bos : saya bos ke awak bos? (sambil senyumsenyum macam nak mintak kena lempang gn aku!)

me : (dalam hati je. "okay. . fine. ")



hahaha! dat's it. lawak isn't it? gawd! i really hate to remember those moment. gggrrrr!

okay lah, have to back to tonne works. recess over. daa.

Fullhouse.

Yeah finally we went to this place, FULLHOUSE, Damansara branch :D Having our dinner's date before we went home after work. Thank you belanja i makan, sayang! The place was cool, surrounded with cool stuffs. I love the place but not the food. Hahaha! The food was so-so, compared to Haven Restaurant. But atleast we had tried the food. Tehee :) So here are some photos taken but the quality was not so good :/ Btw, enjoy!

"Blessed Husband."

"Blessed Wife."

The Menu.

1) Alfredo Spaghetti (so creamy, so muak, so i makan xhabes! :p) + Soda Grape Peppermint With Sourplum Pop (drink)

2) Tony's Chicken Teriyaki Chicken Burger (hmm, not badddd :D) + Lime Juice (drink)

Nice isn't it? :)

. . .

Recently i had less moment with darla since he was so busy with his tonne works at his new place. Duhh sometimes i felt left out and started to 'merajuk' when finally he bringing the parts into the whole, showing me where everything fits. I did understand, but well. . knowing women's aite? ;) Because I apparently wanted attention. Badly.

I do miss the days where the romance was fresh and exciting. I always will. It's tough to know that none of our dates will ever feel like one of those first dates. But nevermind, i know he works hard for us :')

I've kept busy spending hours planning and dreaming for the perfect things in my life. I dream about buying new car, rentling house at Damansara, upgrading our life style and dream about having babies! Cool isn't it? ;)

Just to let you know that i am missing you sayang. . . :') I've always wanted to be one of those people who will complete your life and i promise for being me, someone who doesn't shift and change depending on where they are or who they're with.



Love you husband,
Bebe.